My friends, after I lost Halia, I had to do so much soul searching. One of the first things that laid heavy on my heart was thinking about my own death... How did I want those closest to me to grieve? Would I want Nick, my husband, to bury himself in work or be curled … Continue reading My Grief Journey in One Word: Gratitude
Grief. What a strange word. Before I lost Halia, this word had very little context to me. I thought I understood it... but frankly I had no earthly idea what true grief meant. Before our loss, I would sympathetically sit with those who lost but it did not touch me. I would hug them and … Continue reading Grief is Not a Bad Word
*This post contains affiliate links. If you decide to purchase one of these products off Amazon from the links below, I will receive a portion of the proceeds, although you will not pay more.* https://giphy.com/gifs/guy-cheetah-ejm8tkFonl8o8 HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR!!!! That's my New Year's Dance! As I have gotten older, I have found that my favorite … Continue reading New Year: Values
Why are some days more difficult? To answer my question, I don't know. Why has the last few days been so hard? No idea. What has changed? Honestly, nothing that I can see... but I can feel it. I can feel that I am struggling to breathe at moments because I miss my daughter so. … Continue reading My Grief Journey: Taking My Grief “Box” Off the Shelf
Living with Gratitude Empowering through Knowledge Inspiring to Fellowship Let those words sink in... Guys, I have thought so long and hard about Technically Denise and here is the honest answer... I need a new mission statement! I am not someone who is afraid to change when life throws me a curveball... and that is … Continue reading New Mission for a New Year!
As I sit here thinking about this last year, I am so grateful for how far I have come since the loss of Halia but my journey is not over. I still grieve and mourn and today is one of those days.Tonight is my son's Christmas program and I feel my heart sink. Why should … Continue reading Grief: Christmas Program
*This post contains affiliate links. If you decide to purchase one of these products off Amazon from the links below, I will receive a portion of the proceeds, although you will not pay more.* First off, I am so sorry that you are here needing to read this post. Loss is devastating and rocks you … Continue reading Using Your Love Language to Support Others After Loss
Thank you, TruCreate LLC, for capturing these beautiful photos. Halia, my sweet girl, Happy Birthday! Where has this year gone? I cannot even begin to believe that only one year ago the hardest day of my life occurred: the day I got to hold you in my arms and say good-bye. How much you are … Continue reading To My Daughter: Happy Birthday in Heaven
Okay, so once more, here I am after a long hiatus from writing. Why can't I just keep this going? Why don't I just quit if I do not have the time? Why, why, why? I know that we all have these moments in our lives that can make us feel so defeated (keyword: can), … Continue reading Nesting Glasses
Friends, I have honestly been avoiding sharing most of my rainbow experience. Why? I am not completely sure... probably because the feelings are all muddled and mostly irrational. There is shame: I feel at times like I somehow caused the loss of Halia (this is bogus, by the way). There is guilt: I just lost … Continue reading Rainbow Series: Pregnancy, Not what I thought it would be
